too late to say I'm sorry?
I haven't updated in quite a long time. And it
seems like a lot has changed. But I don't know if a lot has changed.
When I look at my own life the weeks seem to run together.
However, there have been some developments. As
concerns things that I'd be willing to share in such a public forum,
there's one major point: I have a new job. And it's like having a new
life. The atmosphere, the difference in stress levels, the
interaction with my co-workers... It's all so refreshing. On the one
hand, the weeks go by so quickly, and that's a wonderful change from
where I used to work. On the other hand, with the weeks going by so
quickly, my life goes by just as quickly. But it's a better life.
There've been a few adventures and misadventures.
There's been life in the meantime. Oh! There's been a new computer. Out
with the old PII 266 MHz desktop, in with the new Core Duo laptop. I've
sold my motorcycle (though I'm still extremely grateful for the trip we've
taken), my parents moved from San Francisco to Chicago, and I'm still in
love (an adventure in its own right).
Why the title of this entry? you may be asking. It
started off as a reference to how long it's been since I've updated. But
I decided to ask if anyone can relate to feeling like you've lost
someone's trust. Even if you haven't, simply the perception that you have
can make you push your breath like you're inflating a balloon when you're
really just trying to make a statement you're afraid might not be
believed. That's about all I want to say.
So is it too late to say I'm sorry? Is it too late to
say I'm still here? Cuz I am. More than ever, even if I don't update to
show it.
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